But do I know?

Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say Now it's too late to hold you Cause you've flown away, so far away Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile Feelin' and knowing you hear me It keeps me alive. Alive And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we've lost along the way And I know eventually we'll be together One sweet day Picture a little scene from Heaven Darling, I never showed you Assumed you'd always be there I took your presence for granted But I always cared And I miss the love we shared And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we've lost along the way And I know eventually we'll be together One sweet day Picture a little scene from Heaven Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll always look to a brighter day Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep, You'll always listen, as I pray And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we've lost along the way And I know eventually we'll be together One sweet day And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven Like so many friends we've lost along the way And I know eventually we'll be together One sweet day Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say

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5:46 PM Saturday, April 19, 2008

Hi peops! I'm here again and today I erm. cried while listening to this song on the radio. what was super embarassing was that it was in the car and I had to swallow my tears like crazy because my mum and brother were there! It just epitomizes me...

原来-林俊杰
词:张思尔林秋离曲:林俊杰
街灯绊住我眼前
下一步
拉长的影子
嘲弄的回顾

电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离

原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡

电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离

原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

I really cried okay. It's so...me.

8:08 AM Friday, April 18, 2008

HIM&HER
my passion is him
you know not who
I conceal him deep
with my heart and soul.

There he is protected
He lies safe and sound
With no harm whatsoever
hurting his crown.

I scream, he knows
I muffle myself with
the tears by the buckets
to silence my soul.

He cries and I cry
our hearts together in tandem
I live in this misery
We all call love.

It's torture I know
You see by my tears
Running in my blood
Hidden from view.

Yet when I bleed
it all comes out
my love and passion
for the one and only.

I'm excluded
because of this love
they all don't understand me
they don't know my love

It's she I hate
she thinks she loves him
she is just hurting him
with her lies and desire.

She's materialistic
SHe knows I love him
She tries to drown my fire
by her crocodile tears.

She's got her gang of villians
three of them including her
They suck up to many people
and try to cause them to hate me.

"hahaha" that girl goes
filled with all the seven sins
and includes fake love and desire
to make all believe her

One has succumbed to her
She thinks she's superior to me
but I have a heart, she dosen't.
All she has is a steel pump.

Don't be afraid...
[edit] this is just put here to contrast later on. This was when I was still immature and naive. Can't believe I was like that just a few months ago.[/edit]

Labels: childish

8:03 AM

DO THEY KNOW ME
Do they know me?
They don't. I cry
and they think I'm laughing
They have no idea what I am.

Under my cheerful exterior
lies a passive soul
with tears as its blood
and sorrow as its food.

Do they really think
I'm that naive
And I don't know
what love is?

Do you really think
I'm that insensitive
And I don't know
how to cry?

I know to cry
beneath my laughter
to hide that burning
passion for him.

I know to cry
I'm made of tears
To quench that burning
Fire inside

Do they know me?
The me inside
fighting back with tears
to come outside?

Alas I've succumbed
To the tears this time
They're flowing in my blood
They're becoming me...

Labels: poetry, random, sad, writing

8:01 AM

hi peops!
I shall upload my poems now...
shock! horror!
i shall also marquee them on the front page. later.
for now...

look above!

Labels: random

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8:50 PM Thursday, April 17, 2008

-this bit was removed because I just realised it dosen't relate anymore and is too insulting.-
ooh today we had pft 2.4. I got B!!! boohoohoo. must remember to hug mishi to death 2moro for cheering me from the 112 window. I carnt hug yengsie to death she'll just poke me.
Mishi is different. she's so entertaining hahaha

today I cried. i cried in the toilet during lunch. omg this sounds so un-me. but that's me. reality check, gal. I'm an emo, sensitive crybaby underneath. get that right.i cried because I was feeling so stressed by just telling everybody about the me inside. a very scary thing to do but i did it. shouldnt have. argh i think that affected my performance in PFT. could have gotten a had i not almost tripped and ended up walking. dammit.

this blogskin is for ·$4 TARBET!!! ·$6 and of course the emo bit. I dont think arron will notice if i die... what a disastrous thought.

um it's private because of the people mentioned in black above. yea. I dont want them to have the authority to touch my bloggie. my precious bloggie. yeh.
ok i left my 3 poems at sch must go get them tomorrow. yeah.

ok signing off!!
♥wonk♥

Labels: immature, sad, sorry

new skin(again!)
8:39 PM Wednesday, April 16, 2008

-i deleted this bit becuase it is far too insulting-

Labels: immature

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