Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say
Now it's too late to hold you
Cause you've flown away, so far away
Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile
Feelin' and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive. Alive
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene from Heaven
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Picture a little scene from Heaven
Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll
always look to a brighter day
Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep,
You'll always listen, as I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Sorry, I Never told you, all I wanted to say
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single and loving it like anything.
turning
fourteen on the
twentyeighth of November.And, correct on 16th Febuary, needs exactly
4.5 cm to just be an
average-heighted woman in SINGAPORE.
but she's much taller than when she was in
TNS and
Temasek PrimaryShe's in love with
FAMILY FRIENDS MUSIC PUMA (also her Temasek House <3) and
THE CLICK FIVE and
BRYAN ADAMS and
TOMMY PAGE and
CLAIRE GUO and manymany more.
She is currently on a mission to
force persuade juniors to join her deardear RGS. And no she does not persuade people to go to RI. For some reason.
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I'm actually growing okay!
She's reallyreally sensitive so watch what you say and do.
she can see stuff too, she isn't idiotic.
And she hides much more than she shows.
Because it's not safe in this cruel world.
You may think she's ordinary under those spectacles, but that's why she wears them.
when she takes them off for real, she still might not have taken off her mask.
Love her? Hate her? It's still an obsession.
are obsessed. with her.
9:02 PM Wednesday, May 14, 2008
Staring into the distance…reflecting back into the past
Just thinking about
what we had and how it would always last.
Thoughts of your innocent smile
and your loving touch,
And all that you have given me…oh so much.
How we
shared both the good times and the bad,
But always remembering the best
moments we had.
I think about those true feelings and that very first kiss,
So intense, yet caring…that’s what I’ve come to miss.
But then came so
much pain and relentless fears,
Feelings of frustrations and uncontrollable
tears.
You know I tried…you know I changed,
But you always just fuckin’
complained.
You said you loved me…you said you cared,
But something
happened and now you’re not there.
You broke my heart and you broke your
promise,
Don’t deny it, please don’t even try,
Whatever you say is just
another damn lie.
You’re shallow…insensitive…and selfish too.
It was
never about me…it was always about you, you, and you.
Damn, you caused so
much pain…just go to hell…you’re fuckin’ insane.
I can’t…I won’t ever
forget.
I can’t…I won’t ever forgive.
What we had is gone…yes…now and
forever.
You and me…no longer…never.
Why all the anger? Why all the
hate?
I guess our time together was a big fuckin’ mistake.
How can you
be so callous? I just don’t understand.
I thought we were close and I
thought you were my friend.
Was it something you wanted? Was it something I
said?
Or was it something I did or didn’t do, instead?
Nothing but
unanswered questions…what can I say?
Except that I hate you...I hate you
because of that day.
When I needed you the most, you decided to leave,
And just like that you walked out on me.
Don’t you get it? It was you
all along.
You’re the one with issues…you were so damn wrong.
You say
things happen for a reason…perhaps you’re right.
But really…admit it…you
just wanted me out of your sight.
I once believed, but now I don’t…‘cause
you took away my trust,
And even my hopes.
I can’t…I won’t ever forget.
I can’t…I won’t ever forgive.
What we had is gone…yes…now and forever.
You and me…no longer…never.
Nothing but broken promises, broken dreams,
and broken hearts.
It wasn’t me…yes, you…who tore us apart.
No longer
reflecting back into the past…’cause this love was never really meant to last.
Only letting you go…’cause forget…forgive, I won’t…that much I know.
Labels: poetry, writing
12:15 PM Sunday, May 11, 2008
At first it was so fun
everything went well
everything was being shined on
by a bright yellow light
Now I know that's not true
the light was not from the sun
but an incandesent light bulb
it soon ran out of energy
A blanket thrown over me
everthing inside was dark and empty
I try to find my way out
but the thick velvet keeps me stuck inside
I feel suffocated
and I'm sure it isn't just me
I have no idea why I look outside
I find a knife
Is it going to help me
I slash futilely at the blanket
accidentally
slashing my own wrist
Suddenly
there is a feeling of pain
revertebrating
throughout my body
taking away the emotional pain inside
I welcome it, slashing my wrist
again, again, again.
The tears
locked inside for so long
come out with the blood
but I sob quietly
trying not to let anybody know
Does it work?
I have no idea
I can only hear faint voices
I am still deciphering what they mean
They all think they know that blanket over there
but they don't know what lies beneath
But don't come and save me
I think I like it better here
Anyway, most of it is deceit anyway
I don't care
I want to live in my world
I think it's so much better here
My blanket-my world.
Labels: angry, numb, poetry, sad, writing
Desolation
3:39 PM Friday, May 9, 2008
I closed my eyes
There was this
Wind.
This pleasurable
Wind.
I felt it on my cheeks
Distracting me from
Life.
Taking you outta my
Life.
There was this feeling
That something wrong
Happened.
But I didnt know anything
Happened.
But when I opened my eyes
And saw this crack
Surprise
What I just felt was
Surprise
Then I realised
Your back was to
Me
You had just abandoned
Me
Then I realised
You were drifting
Away
We were slowly moving
Away
I looked around pathetically
And I felt as a shock
Desolation
I was stranded & filled with
Desolation
Labels: numb, poetry, sad, writing
Death
12:10 PM Sunday, April 27, 2008
She touched the wall.
Why did it feel so distant
So...surreal?
It wasn't a moment ago.
She sat on the bed
The icy and unbecoming bed
Staring at her,
A grimace on its ashen face.
She felt for his hand
It was on impulse, instinct,
She knew it was gone
She knew he was gone.
For it was without notice
That Death sucked him away
And sprinkled ice over
His humble abode.
The air she breathed
Was cold as steel, lifeless;
Exactly like the body
She'd cried bitterly on just now.
Death was so cruel,
Breaking simple lives apart
Causing pain and sorrow
With a flick of his black wrist.
Death was unrepentful
He didn't care about the consequences
A life was like a dot
To a powerful lord like him.
She stood on the chair
A noose over her neck
Wanting to be with him
Wanting to be with her love.
She was about to jump
But the Angel of Life was there
He touched her briefly
And reminded her of his last words.
"Take...Care" he whispered
And her tears fell relentlessly
She removed the noose
And she stepped down quietly.
Labels: numb, poetry, sad, writing
Farewell
2:07 PM Saturday, April 26, 2008
He had to go
She knew it.
He couldn't help it
She knew it.
Love was about letting go
She knew it.
But she just wanted him so badly
She knew it.
He would miss her
He knew it.
He couldn't change his fate
He knew it.
He had to go
He knew it.
But he wanted so much to stay
He knew it.
All the happy times together
They knew them.
This would hurt a lot
They knew it.
They bade their final farewells
And then the doors closed shut.
Both of them stared at the opaque door
That's when the tears started flowing.
Labels: poetry, sad, writing
Winter
7:46 PM Thursday, April 24, 2008
Winter comes
In the silent night
Stealthily, silently
Into the quiet countryside
She slides through the trees
Leaving a white trail everywhere
She slithers on the ground
Covering rocks here and there.
She licks the windowpane
With her icy tongue
Leaving intricate patterns
With a blow from her lung.
She breathes the life
Out of vegetation
She lures the animals
Into hibernation.
She bats his long eyelashes
And Hail falls prey
He races through to meet her
Scattering ice on his way.
She calls for her best friend
And Snow comes flying past
She glides gracefully through
Sprinkling snowflakes like dust.
They play for ninety days
Then spring comes to meet
With his smile so sunny
Surviving is a feat.
He grins with the aid
Of Mr. O'Mighty Sun
And Winter takes her repose
Her time here is done. Labels: poetry, random, writing
8:03 AM Friday, April 18, 2008
DO THEY KNOW MEDo they know me?They don't. I cryand they think I'm laughingThey have no idea what I am.Under my cheerful exteriorlies a passive soulwith tears as its bloodand sorrow as its food.Do they really thinkI'm that naiveAnd I don't knowwhat love is?Do you really thinkI'm that insensitiveAnd I don't knowhow to cry?I know to crybeneath my laughterto hide that burningpassion for him.I know to cryI'm made of tearsTo quench that burningFire insideDo they know me?The me insidefighting back with tearsto come outside?Alas I've succumbedTo the tears this timeThey're flowing in my bloodThey're becoming me...Labels: poetry, random, sad, writing
4:30 PM Monday, April 7, 2008
eehee this is a poem i wrote:
Any other pair of eyesWould just look at meOr even past meThey cast a side glance at my eyesDismissing then as just a physical part of mebut his eyes didn't.They looked through meSaw what was insideHe knew what I wasBut was it a mistakeTo let him do this to meTo let him take my heart away?Or maybe it was just meWho accidentally fell into his eyesThose deep, dark pools.He caused me to experience painOf needing to achieve the impossibleTo curb my passion for him.But the joy he caused mewhen he genuinely smiled at mewas unsurpassable.Or maybe it was worth itTo fall in love with these eyesTo fall in love with him?Um it was spontaneous because I was inspired. but. not. by. myself.
Labels: poetry, writing
A poem I made in the middle of the day.lol.
12:02 PM Sunday, February 3, 2008
Darkness is falling
I look with open eyes at the sky
But there's not a glimmer of light
To illuminate the seas I overlook
And brighten up the night.
Starless skies they seem to be
but indeed the stars are there.
The light mankind makes on his own
Is far too much to bear.
It outshines the stars!
Pushes their light away.
And so the joy they bring to us
Is swept off and almost gone today.
What have we done?
Poor Thomas Elva Edison.
He tried so much to help us all
He invented for a reason.
However the electric light bulb
Soon led to light pollution
And now even the poor turtles who are going to sea
crawl instead towards the centre of the nation.
What can I do? I cannot go down
To help the people here.
I can only sit here helplessly
And wait for them to hear.
So now you've heard. Go tell the guys
To dim their lights a notch.
I know it may be hard but still...why not?
Help the shiny turtles a bit.
yes I know it looks lame. Go laugh. Hahaha. And I know I'm writing this in the middle of the day where everything is bright and pretty.So laugh! Laughing is healthy.Go laugh. But I hope you will remember this poem. Maybe help give some comments for editing.
but I was just bored lah. So comment! I wanna see the pretttty comments.
Labels: immature, poetry, writing
